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I have felt like something has been missing all morning like I forgot to do something or take one of my meds. Only taking one. I've been working on what it means to have a daily walk with God oneness etc I finally understand hat it meant that moonlit few drops are a wall before the truth. I was out playing ingress and only.hacking a few portals. I was walking in circles around a small building, The thought occurred to me that maybe this is my daily walk with God. Slowly at first then building like like an opening flower, the universe came alive. I try here to explain and define in words the spiritual enlightenment which is impossible. I realized some things mainly that ingress, and before that reading, although reading can help gain knowledge, and before that just daydreaming were distracting me from the feelings and experiences that were all around me in the present. That the people the trees nature the sound of mail trucks horn the clouds, all around to be experienced and I was disconnected from it all. Distracted from the truth of existence all around. It occurred to me the interaction between people. The church building that shuffles people out of the chapel, all the while people are there conversing. The conversing is the gospel. The interaction is not zen but don't know how to put it but that's the point of the building. The interaction of these individuals. Zen is personal